It was almost a week ago when some spare hard drives, disturbed by my shuffling about in preparation for our upcoming move, dropped from a cabinet onto the open-faced motherboard that served as my web and gopher server for the past year. The debris dislodged the sound card and jarred the hard drive enough to gouge the surface and totally ruin the drive. I typically have a none-too-recent backup of the drive, but I have had to shuffle around the backup drives to put my daughter Shayna back into service, so the backup drive had been recently formatted and EVERYTHING is now lost!!
Fortunately, I had been slowly moving most of my core documents to cloud servers, so all of what I would consider to be the really important stuff has weathered this storm. The server itself is back in service and there is a web and gopher server running, but they are both quite empty for now. Both the old podcasts are totally gone, which is a bit sad, but it would probably be just as well that I render most of the information that went into the podcasts into far more concise text, probably for posting in the future on this blog.
Frankly, there were likely some very dangerous recordings and essays on the server that probably were very outdated and really needed to be removed. It isn't good to have too much of your uncensored self out on the public web anyway. It was okay when no one really looked at the site, but with job changes, moving, and graduate school in the offing, there was a good chance that something damning that I have said/wrote in the past could come back to haunt me! I am quite prepared to attribute the falling hard drives event to a fortuitous act of God and be grateful for the happening...
If you go clicking on links to the old QuIX properties, I hope you are not too disappointed at the lack of objects to browse. Life happens!
11 June 2012
05 June 2012
Navigiary Begins
After years of effort and trying to walk away from the thing, the first book of the Navigiary series: Escape, is finally out and available on the Kindle store.
There is also another blog that I have just for Navigiary. Surprisingly, I also allow commenting on that blog as well!
See what I have been working on all these years but know that Escape is but an introduction - the meat of the story is yet to come!
17 January 2012
More than a New Year's Resolution
I am tired. I find myself bored with my present life and the person I am right now. I have a fine, fine job and I work alongside wonderful people, but I need to be doing more. I need to become more and I am reasonably sure that this is also what God expects from me. I hope you readers don't consider this a "cocky" statement as I consider it an indictment of my lack of activity in the area of rising to my potential. I have no idea what that potential is, but I have not be making much of an effort toward discovering it. I want to begin to rectify that, starting right now.
Every Sunday, we hold a family council and a bit of a "home evening" with whatever family members are available. During the council, each family member has an opportunity to ask a question, present a concern, or make a comment. Last Sunday, during my time to do "questions, concerns, or comments", something popped into my head and, after only a moment or two of thought, I commented that I wanted to share a personal goal. With all the insight of a minute or two, I said:
"I want to celebrate my fiftieth birthday in London."
That may sound silly and totally unrealistic, especially given our family finances, but that is because you are likely not aware of the context of my statement. Please allow me to tell a little about what almost unconsciously informed this goal.
Ever since my children were small, I have thought and spoke "internationally", which is to say that I dreamed of far-away places and things. What would it be like to live in one foreign country or another? What places would be most possible for us to go? What different cultures or languages would we have to understand to function well there? Coupled with a total inability not to keep my thoughts to myself, I shared these questions and my research toward answering them with my family. Over time, I began to see that some of my children were being affected. My older daughter took it upon herself to teach herself Hebrew and to look forward to visiting and perhaps living in Israel which is not an inconsistent thing to do as both she and I share a Jewish heritage. My younger daughter dreams of someday living in Italy and enjoying the beauty and art of that place. Though my other children have so far expressed no desire to travel or live internationally, I would not be surprised if they quietly dream of such things or, at the very least, are familiar enough with locations outside of the USA to be far above the local average in a world geography exams.
When I was a younger man, I left a wonderful yet boring job and went to sea, getting a position as a seismic navigator hunting for oil. It was an interesting two years, floating in the Gulf of Mexico and off the coast of west Africa. Although I became familiar with various airports in exotic places, I took little opportunity to explore past being an airline passenger in the international terminal. Although such travels whetted my appetite, it did nothing to address my hunger.
Unfortunately, outside of dreaming and flying a bit, I had not yet really taken my own advice. I was encouraging my chlidren, but I was not being an example of someone who works toward the goal and accomplishes it.
I need to do a better job.
So, I don't know exactly how I will get myself working in London and in what capacity, but I have taken the first step to making it happen. I have my passport updated and all my credentials in as much order as I can. I am already interviewing with the company I worked for internationally over a decade ago and I hope they hire me and get my foot back into door of foreign travel. It really helps to be there even occasionally when you want to live and work there. It is also far easier to get transferred to London with a company than to get a job there as a non-resident non-citizen. If I want help, especially from God, I will need to show everyone that I am willing to do as much as I can to make it happen myself.
I will likely keep you readers informed on how it goes.
Every Sunday, we hold a family council and a bit of a "home evening" with whatever family members are available. During the council, each family member has an opportunity to ask a question, present a concern, or make a comment. Last Sunday, during my time to do "questions, concerns, or comments", something popped into my head and, after only a moment or two of thought, I commented that I wanted to share a personal goal. With all the insight of a minute or two, I said:
"I want to celebrate my fiftieth birthday in London."
That may sound silly and totally unrealistic, especially given our family finances, but that is because you are likely not aware of the context of my statement. Please allow me to tell a little about what almost unconsciously informed this goal.
Ever since my children were small, I have thought and spoke "internationally", which is to say that I dreamed of far-away places and things. What would it be like to live in one foreign country or another? What places would be most possible for us to go? What different cultures or languages would we have to understand to function well there? Coupled with a total inability not to keep my thoughts to myself, I shared these questions and my research toward answering them with my family. Over time, I began to see that some of my children were being affected. My older daughter took it upon herself to teach herself Hebrew and to look forward to visiting and perhaps living in Israel which is not an inconsistent thing to do as both she and I share a Jewish heritage. My younger daughter dreams of someday living in Italy and enjoying the beauty and art of that place. Though my other children have so far expressed no desire to travel or live internationally, I would not be surprised if they quietly dream of such things or, at the very least, are familiar enough with locations outside of the USA to be far above the local average in a world geography exams.
When I was a younger man, I left a wonderful yet boring job and went to sea, getting a position as a seismic navigator hunting for oil. It was an interesting two years, floating in the Gulf of Mexico and off the coast of west Africa. Although I became familiar with various airports in exotic places, I took little opportunity to explore past being an airline passenger in the international terminal. Although such travels whetted my appetite, it did nothing to address my hunger.
Unfortunately, outside of dreaming and flying a bit, I had not yet really taken my own advice. I was encouraging my chlidren, but I was not being an example of someone who works toward the goal and accomplishes it.
I need to do a better job.
So, I don't know exactly how I will get myself working in London and in what capacity, but I have taken the first step to making it happen. I have my passport updated and all my credentials in as much order as I can. I am already interviewing with the company I worked for internationally over a decade ago and I hope they hire me and get my foot back into door of foreign travel. It really helps to be there even occasionally when you want to live and work there. It is also far easier to get transferred to London with a company than to get a job there as a non-resident non-citizen. If I want help, especially from God, I will need to show everyone that I am willing to do as much as I can to make it happen myself.
I will likely keep you readers informed on how it goes.
24 December 2011
The Asocial Unetwork
[Update: I do have a facebook account now, but that is only to advertise blog posts and such to the world. I rarely look at what others post there. Like me and be my friend knowing that I probably am not reading your stuff.]
I have just been regaled by the utterly thoughtless postings of several of my talkative extended family members on a "service" called "facebook". My oldest daughter is an on-and-off member of this chronic exhibitionist collective, which is how I know anything about such things at all. At the ripe age of 44, I am one of those "old farts" that avoids "texting", much less its more evolved cousins like twitter and a procession of social yammering spots. I just never got interested.
The larger problem is that I decided long before this technology existed that it was far smarter and safer to keep your thoughts to yourself. I can't say that I do a marvelous job of this, but I seemingly do far, far better than the typical youngish person. In the distant past, people wanted their lives to be private and even went to far as to say that such a "right to privacy" existed or needed to be codified. In our modern times, it seems no one even bothers to use the word "private", much less exercise privacy themselves.
I know all the tawdry gossip about the people around me because it is broadcasted to practically everyone through some social network. The saddest thing of all is that these tidbits are not really gossip at all, these missives are actually posted by the person themselves. Once upon a time, something unsavory such as an out-of-wedlock pregnancy was whispered around for weeks until the person finally admitted that the circumstances were true. These days, the "mommy-to-be" uses something like twitter or facebook (does no one capitalize names anymore?) to inform everyone before the old-fashioned rumor mill even has a chance to warm up. This must make "news agencies" infuriated as there seems to be very little "dirt" to dig about these days as starlets and CEOs just let their totally uncensored private parts "hang out" from moment to moment. So much for "scooping" a story!
I only have a cell phone because my job requires it and I don't pay for a "texting" add-on, no matter how inexpensive it is. I immediately saw that I would have what little concentration I can muster constantly interrupted by little non-sequitirs. To think that I would invite further interruptions by signing up for a text message aggregator like twitter and the much more expansive social networks is just no where near my interests. I have nothing to say at a moment's notice that would be proper and I doubt anyone else has useful things to say without some thought that an email would not improve. I purposefully disabled commenting on my blog, which is the closest I will likely get to becoming electronically social - if you really want to say something to me, I prefer either an email or that you keep comments to yourself. Rude, but true.
If you want to know what I do from minute to minute, I will say this: I tend to breathe (and much more so now that I have discovered the Aveo TSD), I read various obscure texts, I ponder about life, talk incessantly at no one in particular, and write occasionally. I blather on-and-on courtesy the podcast and I place the odd essay on my gopher server. That is about all the "social networking" you are going to get from me!
I have just been regaled by the utterly thoughtless postings of several of my talkative extended family members on a "service" called "facebook". My oldest daughter is an on-and-off member of this chronic exhibitionist collective, which is how I know anything about such things at all. At the ripe age of 44, I am one of those "old farts" that avoids "texting", much less its more evolved cousins like twitter and a procession of social yammering spots. I just never got interested.
The larger problem is that I decided long before this technology existed that it was far smarter and safer to keep your thoughts to yourself. I can't say that I do a marvelous job of this, but I seemingly do far, far better than the typical youngish person. In the distant past, people wanted their lives to be private and even went to far as to say that such a "right to privacy" existed or needed to be codified. In our modern times, it seems no one even bothers to use the word "private", much less exercise privacy themselves.
I know all the tawdry gossip about the people around me because it is broadcasted to practically everyone through some social network. The saddest thing of all is that these tidbits are not really gossip at all, these missives are actually posted by the person themselves. Once upon a time, something unsavory such as an out-of-wedlock pregnancy was whispered around for weeks until the person finally admitted that the circumstances were true. These days, the "mommy-to-be" uses something like twitter or facebook (does no one capitalize names anymore?) to inform everyone before the old-fashioned rumor mill even has a chance to warm up. This must make "news agencies" infuriated as there seems to be very little "dirt" to dig about these days as starlets and CEOs just let their totally uncensored private parts "hang out" from moment to moment. So much for "scooping" a story!
I only have a cell phone because my job requires it and I don't pay for a "texting" add-on, no matter how inexpensive it is. I immediately saw that I would have what little concentration I can muster constantly interrupted by little non-sequitirs. To think that I would invite further interruptions by signing up for a text message aggregator like twitter and the much more expansive social networks is just no where near my interests. I have nothing to say at a moment's notice that would be proper and I doubt anyone else has useful things to say without some thought that an email would not improve. I purposefully disabled commenting on my blog, which is the closest I will likely get to becoming electronically social - if you really want to say something to me, I prefer either an email or that you keep comments to yourself. Rude, but true.
If you want to know what I do from minute to minute, I will say this: I tend to breathe (and much more so now that I have discovered the Aveo TSD), I read various obscure texts, I ponder about life, talk incessantly at no one in particular, and write occasionally. I blather on-and-on courtesy the podcast and I place the odd essay on my gopher server. That is about all the "social networking" you are going to get from me!
31 October 2011
Sabinoso Wilderness
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| A bit of the Canadian Escarpment nearby |
Of course, it is all very new and there is no access to the wilderness for now (might never be). I suppose you have to get airlifted in and out (or perhaps use an ultralight aircraft - there's an idea!)
Press Release about the Sabinoso Wilderness
07 October 2011
Don't Mourn For Us: An Epiphany
I was "teaching" at a high school in the spring on 2002 when I stumbled upon this webpage with an essay by Jim Sinclair that was just absolutely stunning. I think I was beginning to realize that I was autistic, just not at the same level as my son Matt, who was diagnosed just before his third birthday.
It seems I am on an autism jag today. Don't expect this to become an autism blog however. I got very tired of talking about it a while back, so I tend to hope I have moved on, but it is still there of course, that odd side of you that you can never escape.
I wish Lisa and I would have had this insight many years earlier, I think we would have done better as the parents of younger Matt. If your young child has autism, please read it and take it to heart.
The Essay: Don't Mourn For Us
My Short History of North-East New Mexico
I travel in north-eastern New Mexico a lot, as it is the territory of my job doing computer support for the New Mexico Cooperative Extension Service. If you go to a website on New Mexico, it probably isn't really talking about this part of the state, as it is very lightly populated, and has no recreation areas or mountains (compared with Santa Fe and Taos). It is a land of huge ranches and wide-open spaces, sandwiched between that fertile mid-western farmland, the scenic mountains, and the bleak "Great Southwest Desert" that early explorers warned travelers to avoid at all costs. Apparently, most sane people listened to that advice!
North-east New Mexico was mostly the range-land of buffalo in the distant past. Apache and Comanche tribes hunted here, but never made anything approaching settlements. Water is scarce and seasonal at best and the tribes had sense enough to keep their families in more hospitable places. The first settlers were Spaniards that were given land grants by the Spanish Government in the new acquisitions of Nuevo Mexico and Tejas. Of course, this territory was always in the "no-man's-land" margins of both these Spanish possessions. These settlers could only make a go of living in small settlements along the rather permanent Pecos and Canadian Rivers, which look like small streams to most "Easterners". As the buffalo were eliminated, cattle were brought in to replace them, along with barbed wire, cowboys, the Catholic Church, and a bit of civilization.
This was part of some of the last territory in the US to be staked out for homesteading, as water is always a problem and nothing could be done about that until deep-drilled water wells were made possible at the turn of the 20th century. Deceptive marketing and crowds of gullible fools came for "free land" that was being given away because it was essentially worthless as "farmland" at the paltry size of 160 acres a person. With their experience of rich farms and plentiful water in the east, getting a "quarter-section" of land seemed a dream come true and tiny "boom towns" sprung up with the same regularity you would have expected for Virginia or Georgia. It was the last great land rush and there seems to be a sucker at every corner post!
My mother's family moved into the area in the early "naughts" and after the devastation of the Depression and the "Dust Bowl" droughts, they carved out a small ranch by buying out desperate homesteaders who didn't understand the meaning of the term "marginal rangeland". Most of the small towns were gradually abandoned and the non-ranching people who didn't run off collected themselves into the larger settlements along the railroad tracks. My great-grandparents were authentic ranchers, my grandparents moved into town for better pay but ranched "part-time", my parents lived in the ranch-house when times were hard and commuted to town for "typical" work, and I simply lacked the gumption to follow my cohorts off to the really big cities and "serious" employment. This is how I got here.
I continue to live here because it is a very cheap place to live and get lightly educated, I was already around here when I became an adult, I prefer a bit of distance from others, and perhaps most of all, I have no real interest in traditional careerism or typical concepts of success. In a short label, I am a societal "cockroach".
So, I while away my driving time between CES offices in the towns that grew up from those railroad settlements. You can often catch me looking down dirt roads for old cemeteries and other evidence of our "prosperous" past. If you get a kick out of ghost towns, we have them in abundance!
North-east New Mexico was mostly the range-land of buffalo in the distant past. Apache and Comanche tribes hunted here, but never made anything approaching settlements. Water is scarce and seasonal at best and the tribes had sense enough to keep their families in more hospitable places. The first settlers were Spaniards that were given land grants by the Spanish Government in the new acquisitions of Nuevo Mexico and Tejas. Of course, this territory was always in the "no-man's-land" margins of both these Spanish possessions. These settlers could only make a go of living in small settlements along the rather permanent Pecos and Canadian Rivers, which look like small streams to most "Easterners". As the buffalo were eliminated, cattle were brought in to replace them, along with barbed wire, cowboys, the Catholic Church, and a bit of civilization.
This was part of some of the last territory in the US to be staked out for homesteading, as water is always a problem and nothing could be done about that until deep-drilled water wells were made possible at the turn of the 20th century. Deceptive marketing and crowds of gullible fools came for "free land" that was being given away because it was essentially worthless as "farmland" at the paltry size of 160 acres a person. With their experience of rich farms and plentiful water in the east, getting a "quarter-section" of land seemed a dream come true and tiny "boom towns" sprung up with the same regularity you would have expected for Virginia or Georgia. It was the last great land rush and there seems to be a sucker at every corner post!
My mother's family moved into the area in the early "naughts" and after the devastation of the Depression and the "Dust Bowl" droughts, they carved out a small ranch by buying out desperate homesteaders who didn't understand the meaning of the term "marginal rangeland". Most of the small towns were gradually abandoned and the non-ranching people who didn't run off collected themselves into the larger settlements along the railroad tracks. My great-grandparents were authentic ranchers, my grandparents moved into town for better pay but ranched "part-time", my parents lived in the ranch-house when times were hard and commuted to town for "typical" work, and I simply lacked the gumption to follow my cohorts off to the really big cities and "serious" employment. This is how I got here.
I continue to live here because it is a very cheap place to live and get lightly educated, I was already around here when I became an adult, I prefer a bit of distance from others, and perhaps most of all, I have no real interest in traditional careerism or typical concepts of success. In a short label, I am a societal "cockroach".
So, I while away my driving time between CES offices in the towns that grew up from those railroad settlements. You can often catch me looking down dirt roads for old cemeteries and other evidence of our "prosperous" past. If you get a kick out of ghost towns, we have them in abundance!
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